fieldtrip to psychosis

Reboot 2012: A third of the way in.

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 11:50:13 +0800

I feel like I’m so full of energy right now, and there’s just absolutely no direction to it. I need direction, yo! Sometimes I wish I was still in school where they can give me structure, but that’s not how life works. At some point, I have to figure things out by myself.

I want to live a life where I can surf, be creative, and make a decent living. I don’t think that’s a lot to ask for, but what am I doing about it?

It’s not like I’m impoverished and have no means. I just feel like I’m not driving those means anywhere awesome. Like most everyone else, I always thought I’d grow up doing something pretty great. I feel like I’m at the cusp of greatness, but lack the push to get there.

I always feel that push of energy from time to time but I don’t seem to be able to follow through. I’ve written countless journal entries like this in the past, but writing stuff down won’t make things happen. But it does help me clarify what sort of junk is going on in my head.

So, today, what IS in my head?

1. I want to write again. I’ve been LAZY. I have been writing, but not in any way that is creative or particularly structured.

2. I want to draw again. I don’t need to make any great works of art, I just know I want to churn out proper works like I used to, before I got LAZY. Because for me, drawing was something that required a lot of thought because I like “elegant and simple solutions”, but somewhere along the way, I got too LAZY to think.

3. I want to eliminate “ay, nakakatamad” from my vocabulary. If I don’t do something, it better not be because I’m too lazy to do it. I better be physically incapable or not actually want to do it for a good reason.

4. I want to kickstart my freelancing career on Odesk.com. This means fixing up my portfolio and my profile. And actively seeking clients. :)

5. I need to narrow down the things that I need to do. Focus, and never let up on something if I need to get it done. (That’s awesome advice from my mom)

I think 5 items is good enough for my manifesto for now. It’s not really complete, but it’s a good start.

Getting my hair curled

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 12:11:29 +0800

And four people are working on my hair right now. How crazy is that??

"With gratitude, the universe is eternally abundant."

Tue, 25 Jan 2011 20:19:12 +0800

““With gratitude, the universe is eternally abundant.””

- happythankyoumoreplease

[written & directed by Josh Radnor]

"May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine..."

Wed, 19 Jan 2011 11:21:00 +0800

“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art – write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. May your coming year be a wonderful thing in which you dream both dangerously and outrageously. I hope you’ll make something that didn’t exist before you made it, that you will be loved and you will be liked and you will have people to love and to like in return. And most importantly, because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now – I hope that you will, when you need to be, be wise and that you will always be kind. And I hope that somewhere in the next year you surprise yourself.”

- Neil Gaiman

"Surfing is: the ocean, my board, my body, some birds, some fish, the horizon, tranquility and..."

Tue, 18 Jan 2011 17:06:00 +0800

““Surfing is: the ocean, my board, my body, some birds, some fish, the horizon, tranquility and excitement… It’s pure happiness and nothing else.””

- Afro D

My friend posted this on Facebook. Been seeing this campaign by...

Thu, 28 Oct 2010 13:27:10 +0800

My friend posted this on Facebook. Been seeing this campaign by Billabong for a while now, and even made my own “I surf because…” photo.

Having just come from a weekend of excellent waves (courtesy of Typhoon Juan/Megi), I may be a little extra emotional and reflective and grateful.

Surfing makes grown men wax poetic about life and passion and happiness. The act of surfing itself creates such a positive energy that’s impossible to resist. Add to it the fact that surfing usually involves travel and meeting new people and experiencing different cultures and it’s a whole different ball game.

My mind is running in all different directions at the moment and can’t articulate very well. In fact, I’m supposed to be working. So I’ll leave this be for now and just be happy in this moment.

fuckyeahsurf: (via soul-surfer)

Mon, 26 Jul 2010 11:23:35 +0800

fuckyeahsurf:

(via soul-surfer)

"Always in the woods when you leave familiar ground and step off alone into a new place, there will..."

Sun, 25 Jul 2010 22:27:24 +0800

“

Always in the woods when you leave familiar ground and step off alone into a new place, there will be along with the feeling of curiosity and excitement, a little nagging of dread.

It is the ancient fear of the unknown, and it is your first bond with the wilderness you are going into. What you are doing is exploring. You are undertaking the first experi-
ence not of the place, but of yourself in that place.

It is an experience of our essential loneliness, for nobody can discover the world for anyone else. It is only after we have discovered it for ourselves that it becomes a common ground and a common bond, and we cease to be alone.

”

- Wendell Berry

The One Inch Journey

fuckyeahsurf: (via surferdude182)

Thu, 15 Jul 2010 23:44:07 +0800

fuckyeahsurf:

(via surferdude182)

Warehouse 13 feat. Firefly

Thu, 15 Jul 2010 23:43:13 +0800

Warehouse 13 feat. Firefly:

I LOVED Firefly. And so when I watched Warehouse 13 S02E02 tonight, imagine my surprise when TWO characters from Firefly were guest starring! They were a couple in Firefly, and they were a couple in this episode. So cool, definitely deliberate. No two ways about it.

And yeah, yeah. I’m such a geek.

fuckyeahsurf: vividanimation: Storm surfing.

Thu, 15 Jul 2010 23:41:22 +0800

fuckyeahsurf:

vividanimation:

Storm surfing.

Invictus

Thu, 15 Jul 2010 23:40:27 +0800

Watched the movie last night. Great movie to watch after the FIFA world cup.

Also… was talking to Mitzi earlier. She said something about the FAFA world cup. Hahahahahahahaha. Awesome.

Another one of my favorites. She’s based in NY now,...

Sat, 08 May 2010 00:27:36 +0800

Another one of my favorites. She’s based in NY now, though.

One of my favorite artists, Beth Parrocha-Doctolero, is a...

Sat, 08 May 2010 00:19:37 +0800

One of my favorite artists, Beth Parrocha-Doctolero, is a children’s book illustrator. Awesomeness all around!

Don’t Talk to Aliens, Says Stephen Hawking

Sat, 08 May 2010 00:07:13 +0800

Don’t Talk to Aliens, Says Stephen Hawking :

Possibly the coolest guy on the planet. I see his point about the glass half empty conclusion. However, the possibilities are just ENDLESS. So, while we may meet a super evil civilization, the chance of meeting a super beneficial civilization is just about the same.

However, why risk it, right??

5 Reasons You Should Be Scared of Apple

Mon, 03 May 2010 21:46:22 +0800

5 Reasons You Should Be Scared of Apple :

Let’s just say it: Nobody has changed the way we interact with technology like Apple has over the last 10 years. Even if the iPad turns out to be the disaster that many are anticipating, Steve Jobs will still be seen as the hero who turns top-end technology into friendly little gadgets even your grandma can use. But recently, a faint chorus has been growing—thousands of tech geeks suggesting that if you look under Apple’s shiny white veneer, you’ll find some practices that are less than user friendly. In fact, some of the things Jobs and Apple are being accused of are so over the top, Lex Luthor would have to take off his hat … and then use it to cover the dark stain spreading across the front of his pants.

I just deactivated my FaceBook account

Mon, 03 May 2010 16:31:16 +0800

So now I’m checking out this Tumblr thing. A blog might be better for me, anyway, instead of a social networking thing. Whatever. I need to flex my writing muscles!